My goal for this year is to learn patience. I'm not expecting to become the most patient person in the world, I'm just hoping for God to teach me how to rely solely on him and his plan.
Sometimes, I sit around and start to think about where I am in life and where others my age are. I know that it's not a good thing to compare myself to others and God has a separte plan for everyone. But, sometimes it's just hard not to.
I look at people in my age bracket and see people that are dating a steady partner, are engaged, are planning weddings, are already married, and some even have babies.
Then there is me. I have never had a boyfriend, at all. This is all something that I really want. I do want to get married and have children. I know that it's a long process and I'm almost 23 years old and haven't even started the process yet.
I know that I don't measure up to the expectations of my family. My grandma tells me that she would like great grandchildren. My mom keeps saying things like "Soon, when I have grandchildren in the house" or "I hope by then you're married." I don't even think of these things as a big deal until somebody else brings it up that I'm "not even dating".
I can't help but feel like I'm falling farther and farther behind in what is supposed to be a natural progression of life. People become adults, meet someone, get married, and have babies. That's just the way it's supposed to be.
I know that if it's meant to happen, then God will make it happen. I also know from the bible that if it is something I desire in my heart, then God will make it happen. (Psalm 37:4). I know that I just need to keep praying and to wait on the Lord and follow his plan for my life.
I heard this song on the radio today: Forgiven by Sanctus Real. It's mostly about being forgiven by God for everything. But there was one line that really reached me and I've been singing it all day.
"When I don't measure up to much in this life, I am a treasure in the arms of Christ."
I am a treasure that God will pair up with a wonderful man when the time is right.
Girl, I know what's that like. I'm about to be 25 and in the exact same situation. It's frustrating, freeing, confusing, and scary all at the same time. It's hard watching all of my friends and former classmates start their families while I feel so far behind, but, like you said, we have to trust that God's timing is so, so, so much better than ours and that His plan for our lives is better than anything we can imagine.
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